Lunchtime.Sweet baby Apple was sound asleep and my two “big” kids were eating at the table. I was sitting between them and after a few moments Ainsleigh creeped over and climbed up on my lap. She was facing towards me and grabbed my cheeks, looked me straight in the eyes and smiled….over and over again in between kisses on my cheeks.Something about the way the sun was shining behind her, something about those sweet dimples that she has.Something about the way her tiny fingers were stroking my hair and clinging to me.Something about the way she clenches on when she thinks I am about to get up.She, too, wants it to last.I desperately wanted to jump up and grab my camera but I didn’t. I held her tight. Soaked it in. And am doing the best job that I can right now to repaint it as a memory.
The weather here in Texas is changing.
It nudges at my soul.
Today I was thinking.
Recently I had to take a personality test for some “work” related things. We wanted to see where we fit best on our team and what roles we could easily be in. There were so many things about the test that were so eye opening for me to read and see written out on paper.
Something that really struck me though was what my results said about me as a mother.
*help their children become who they really are
*support their children’s creativity and originality
*are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
I have no idea if my kids would actually say these things about me or if someday these are ways that they would talk about me as a mother…but I sure hope so.
I desperately want to embrace my babies as individuals…I want to help each one in their own way figure out their purpose, their passions and foster that.
I want them to feel deeply, and learn that it’s okay. I want them to learn to express that.
Motherhood for me is such a joy.
A “life giver.”
I can hardly believe it’s going as fast as it is.
I just hope that I can help my babies find their life purpose…and help them make it happen.
Casey Wiegand is married to her best friend, Christopher, and mom to a 3-year-old boy, Aiden, a 2-year-old girl, Ainsleigh and a 5 month old, Apple. Casey is a freelance artist and also owns an art studio for kids called A Little Artsy. She blogs over at CaseyLeigh where you can expect pieces of her perspective on life, faith, kids, loss, marriage, with touches of art, creative inspiration, projects and things she loves along the way. Writing is a true passion of hers and being able to share her life and thoughts through this space has been an amazing journey so far. She also writes for Disney Baby. Casey is a free spirit and lives with her family in Dallas Texas.
